It has been a month since i last updated my blog...time factor has nothing to do with it...thanks to ur course structure and ur present priorities-we have all the time to be busy doing nothing!!!It was just that i didnt come across anything which could evoke such emotions and thoughts in me that could materialize into a piece of literature...today something such happened...
I was having an interesting discussion(or as it can be otherwise put-"gossip")with a close friend of mine on relationships(no pat on the back for guessing what kind of relationships!!!) and suddenly she said-"Whatever may happen I will never go against my mother.The very thought of doing so is more than a blasphemy for me."She said this and moved ahead......I kept standing there for a minute on the stair overpowered by an avalanche of thoughts which made me numb...literally.Have i done something consciously or unconsciously which my mother would not approve of???have i done something especially in the last eight months which would mar the trust of twenty two years that assured my mother to allow me to be away from home to have a career??my heart stopped beating as the realization dawned and a recap of all the events that have occured got me the answer.
The tears rolling down my face diverted my thoughts from present to past and the flashes of my mother looking at me with mistful eyes made me once again realize the need,the necessity,the importance and the reality of the presence of this lady in my life.I remember her smiling face when she saw me dressed up in a sari for the first time,i remember her claps when i won just a consolation prize in a drawing competition,I remember her laughter when i got good results,I remember her hiding in the garden and crying when my class twelve board result was not good,i remember her keeping fast for my recovery from an illness,i remember her spending sleepless nights for my project works,i remember her walking naked feet to gurudwara 5 kms away from home to thank god for my well being,i remember her saying to someone when i went on stage to collect the medal for the best student in college-"she's my daughter",i remember her accepting wishes from everyone in the party that followed-"i m proud of her",i remember her saying to everyone in the family-"she'll be a role model for all the other chidren in the family",i remember her hugging me so tight when i was to come to mumbai as if she didnt want her heart and soul to move an inch anywhere and i remember her standing, waving and crying till the bus(in which i was sitting all gloomy on the prospect of returning back from vacation) went completely out of her sight.......i remember her everyday,every moment,every second.Maybe one day i wont remember myself...but i will always remember the sacrifices this lady has made for me...i just wish a day comes when i would stand tall in front of the whole world and touch her feet and say-"Whatever i have been,i am and i will be is all because of her.she is my world...PERSONIFIED!!!"
And all i can say now to her is I LOVE YOU,I MISS YOU!!!........i may not be the best child in the world but u definitely are the best mother i could have got.......Thanks for giving life to me and more importantly showing me the way to live it...
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